Last wednesday was a very sad day for me:( i called it ''SAD DAY''.The day that i hoped to be a fun,happy day turn out to be the saddest day of the week,month & even maybe the year.The day started fine.i woke up to go to school like i always do.it was maybe 6.40 yup i was kinda late,so cepat-cepat siap to go to school.i was ready for school and all,suddenly my sister told me that our jiran meninggal.i was shock & don't know how to react ,even though i don't know him that well,still our family was close.he was the first neighbour we knew when we move here 6 years ago.he died the day before actually,we knew it the next morning.he was in an eccident.when ayah knew about the death,ayah terus bagun & just can't go back to sleep.he just keep thinking about the shocking news.Then i was off to school,it was a fun day at school like always,but something just keep bothering me.i just cant stop thinking about the sudden death.it just happened,''death aint something we can predict''.when it's our time,it's our time to go.can you just imagine one day seeing someone walking,talking & was so alive then the next day the person died.do you know that feeling?i did't tell any of my friend about this,& i don't know why -___-'.it just did't came out.after school i went home,ayah just came back from the jiran house for sembahyang jenazah & bacaan yasin.he was there quit long waiting for the jenazah to arrive with my brother-in-law.Ayah was sad,that make me sad to.then lunch time,ayah,me, my sister & her husband just talk about how the eccident happened,arwah was the first jiran we had and all.After all that i just go online for a while,watch some tv,plan what i'm going to do that night.........it was 5.30.means time to cook dinner.mama & kaklia will arrive home soon.so i was just cooking in the kitchen,did't think that much.around 6.20,mama and kaklia arrived home.i was cutting the meat then,mama ask ''adik masak ape tuu?'',..''masak gulai kicap'':) mama was like ''owh mama pun terase nak makan tu jugak tadi'' i smiled:) but the smiled did't last long....kaklia stand beside me and tell me ''adik,ayah su dah meninggal'' from that very second,there was so much thing that crossed my mind,how?when?where? ''innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun''...
everybody was so shock to hear the news.ayah su was just getting better.and better.....day by day.suddenly the moment we all did't aspect he to leave us,he leave us.semuanya ketentuan Allah s.w.t,Allah love him more.he suffered so much.ayah su was diagnosed with ''brain cancer''.he fight it for more than 4 months ,he was so strong before he was so brave he was the uncle everybody wish they could have.he was just that somebody you will love even though you did't know him that well.he was ayah su:)
another bad news for ayah especially,he looked so sad, everyone was.from that moment everyone just wanted be there,for arwah ayah su.no matter what,ayah was not well,so abe yea drive the car to kelantan.convoi to kelantan.it was 9.30 when we are off to gombak,to wait for others,12.00am we we're off to kelantan,even though everyone was very tired,some just came back from work, but for arwah, we all team up and help each other.family love:)that's what we call it.the journey was long,all the way the road was so dark..They all drived so fast,alhamdurillah everyone arrived safely.we arrived around 5.00am.the house was so quit and the feeling there was so sad....arwah ayah su was in a room...laying there,he looked so thin,i did't remember watching him for the last time before, and was that thin.i can't never forget the feeling when i see the jenazah of ayah su,it was so sad.everybody was crying,ayah was so close with ayah su.his was he play mate when they were little.they spend time together,they grew up together.ayah love him like his own brother.to lost a brother,it was something hard to accept.all we can do now is just pray for ayah su.i did't even sleep,i can't.all we can do is baca yasin & al-fatihah.then others keep arriving one by one.my cousins that lose there father was so down & sadness was in there faces.Ateq is even having her spm this year.she's strong.she can surely succeed.insyaAllah.be strong.can you imagine loosing a father?i can't imagine how much sadness they where feeling.i was just so sad for them loosing a father that they loved the most,i did't even know what to ask them.they had enough,so i try to ask and talk about something else.to make them fell better you know?just be strong.arwah was getting ready for ''di kebumikan''.before that everyone kissed & look at arwah for the very last time.it was a very sad moment for everyone.ayah was so sad he just can't hide the tears.arwah was going to be buried near siti wan(grandmother),cik nor & my great grandparents grave...i went to the ''kubur'' with eveyone.the last moment with arwah,everyone was praying & zikir.''harap-harap arwah ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman''everyone will sure remember arwah ayah su,forever.once you're a WCJ you will always be.we will remember arwah forever:)after that everyone was back to eat lunch.that night will be ''tahlil'' for arwah for tree days in a row.everyone was very tired,we haven't sleep for a day.so we went to the hotel,to get a little rest.that night was the ''tahlil''.the other members of the family were going to stay there for ''tahlil'.but me,kaklia & kaklisa was going home.kaklia was having her finale exam & all.we went home with abe yea & abg nazmi.they had to work the next day to.we arrived home safely around 3.32am.even now i can't stop thinking about it.we will sure miss you ayah su,you were our one and only ayah su:)we love you and always will<3
AL-FATIHAH
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