FINDING MYSELF

HEYYYY WHERE ARE YOUUUUUU, SHOW YOURSELF!!!!

i know it's been a while since i post something on my bloggie here, for all of those who actually reads my blog i'm sorry. i don't know whats going on  with me,i just don't have the urge to write i guess. for me to write something  mean you SHARE and TELL people with that something you're writing . so I'm not that type of person, i don't really ''share'' you know what i mean? if you don't just act like you do cause it's hard to explain plus I'm lazy and it's already 3.00 am in the morning.

so whats up with the title? heh heh yes I'm currently finding myself and can't seem to find it yet so the conclusion is I'm LOST. not in the bad way, don't get me wrong. it just that i don't have anything to do, just the same old chores day by day.with no excitement, no adventure and no moneyyyyy ! hehe no work no money lah right? so that's my life now. but when i think about how i am leading a life with no that

''I HAVE TO DO THIS,I HAVE TO DO THAT!''

''I HAVE TO FINISH THIS OR I'M DEAD!''
''ALAHHH, I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW!''
''HURRY UP,I HAVE TUITION TODAY!''
you know things like that? those time when you lead you life as a student even though you're actually really really lost you wouldn't even realized it then.cause you have THINGS TO DO. but now when you have nothing to do you feel lost and will ask yourself this ''WHERE AM I?''

but if you just take a moment to think about it, you're going to miss this lifestyle. just spending time with your family as much as you can at home. just now i had a talk with my mom on what I'm going to do next.so i said DENTISTRY , for now that's may goal. she said what do you want to do and imagine you're self doing it so i said DENTIST.she also said no matter what just think about what you want to do then we will work on that. SPM result is coming out really soon they said it's on 22 MARCH 2011. HOMAIGOD,that's my birthday! so of cause I'm freaking out,ya Allah there's not a single day goes by without me thinking about my spm results.for now on what i can do is pray and tawakal, I'm sure He knows best for his umats. so insyaALLAH , through his will and power i will receive good results.AMIN

BEING STRONG

          Have you ever feel like you have so many things in your head that you are trying very-very hard to make it better,to solve it or to just get over it, but at the end of the day you just end up DUSH! you don't know what is the right and what is the wrong thing to do.so you just stay where you are,thinking about the same thing over and over again in your head.
         
        Even how much i think about how i am going to deal with this, i am dealing with this now.
i don't know how but i am doing my best.i don't even know how to put down my words, even thinking about this makes me just want to cry my heart out.but i cant do that,i have to be strong. my family we are still together,and we have to keep staying together and stay strong together. i have to be here with them,they need me and i need them. there's no time to fool around with my friends. it's just not the right time, how i hope my friends will understand why i am so quiet lately .sorry guys,don't get me wrong.
          
        What i need the most right now is just for the people around me to understand,and just don't get me wrong please.i have to be where i am now,i am here,i want to be here, and i will be here.
        

          

THE BEST COVER EVER MADE,PERIOD!

      

 okay maybe I'm being sarcastic,but to be frank this is one of the best cover ever made as in from my point of view :) so go and check it out guys!

ohhhh how i wish somebody can buy me a guitar.*wink wink :B