FINDING MYSELF

HEYYYY WHERE ARE YOUUUUUU, SHOW YOURSELF!!!!

i know it's been a while since i post something on my bloggie here, for all of those who actually reads my blog i'm sorry. i don't know whats going on  with me,i just don't have the urge to write i guess. for me to write something  mean you SHARE and TELL people with that something you're writing . so I'm not that type of person, i don't really ''share'' you know what i mean? if you don't just act like you do cause it's hard to explain plus I'm lazy and it's already 3.00 am in the morning.

so whats up with the title? heh heh yes I'm currently finding myself and can't seem to find it yet so the conclusion is I'm LOST. not in the bad way, don't get me wrong. it just that i don't have anything to do, just the same old chores day by day.with no excitement, no adventure and no moneyyyyy ! hehe no work no money lah right? so that's my life now. but when i think about how i am leading a life with no that

''I HAVE TO DO THIS,I HAVE TO DO THAT!''

''I HAVE TO FINISH THIS OR I'M DEAD!''
''ALAHHH, I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW!''
''HURRY UP,I HAVE TUITION TODAY!''
you know things like that? those time when you lead you life as a student even though you're actually really really lost you wouldn't even realized it then.cause you have THINGS TO DO. but now when you have nothing to do you feel lost and will ask yourself this ''WHERE AM I?''

but if you just take a moment to think about it, you're going to miss this lifestyle. just spending time with your family as much as you can at home. just now i had a talk with my mom on what I'm going to do next.so i said DENTISTRY , for now that's may goal. she said what do you want to do and imagine you're self doing it so i said DENTIST.she also said no matter what just think about what you want to do then we will work on that. SPM result is coming out really soon they said it's on 22 MARCH 2011. HOMAIGOD,that's my birthday! so of cause I'm freaking out,ya Allah there's not a single day goes by without me thinking about my spm results.for now on what i can do is pray and tawakal, I'm sure He knows best for his umats. so insyaALLAH , through his will and power i will receive good results.AMIN